I’m Making Some Changes

Lately, I’ve been a little down in the dumps because I have let my life become a jumbled mess. It has become just as easy to put on a positive face as it is to become irrationally annoyed or upset. These emotions alone are driving me crazy, haha. I absolutely let my emotions control me 100% of the time. (It’s not always the ideal scenario).

This has prompted me to not only search the ends of the internet for advice, but to also look into consulting a life coach for some advice. It’s about time that I begin to take control of my life, figure out exactly what it is that I want to be doing, and begin looking at things more positively. Over the past year, I have been stagnant when it comes to just about anything in my life. All the dreams and aspirations that I have are put on hold because I’m afraid to make the necessary huge changes to get to a new way of living.

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On a more positive note, I am thrilled for my Jawbone Up band to get here! I had been waiting to order the newest one, Jawbone UP3, but it seems shipping/production is STILL held up and I’m impatient (oops…) So I ordered an older model online to get me started for the next year or so!

I am hoping this gives me a new sense of control over my life and motivates me to watch what I eat and do more carefully. I have gotten used to taking my life for granted and not taking care of my body. This only ends up making things worse!

If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it, change your attitude – Maya Angelou

How to Make Hard Decisions

I’ve searched the Internet countless times to help me make a tough decision when I was unsure and needed more advice. I found myself ruminating on every possible option, thinking this would help me come to a conclusion. This strategy has not gotten me very far because it keeps me fixated on the problem without a “solution.”

After reading this article about Ruth Chang’s TED Talk, it has been made clear to me that I’ve been going about this all wrong. I had fallen into the trap of thinking one choice was automatically better than another, which led to many PROs and CONs lists. But without failure, this method has led me to taking the easy way out with the least amount of risk involved. How will I ever learn or grow that way?

I won’t. Fear and risk-taking have controlled my life for so long that it feels as if I have lost the ability to think for myself when it comes to making decisions. I got in the habit of following in others’ footsteps and doing what is expected of me. In the spirit of personal growth, I’m trying to change this about myself. I expect to encounter many tough decisions in the future, so hopefully this process will prepare me for that.

I encourage you to listen to the TED Talk or at least read the article. Even if you are not in the process of making a big decision, maybe someone you know is and you can help them.

Now I just need to focus on defining my values to help with my decision making process!

Money Is Not The Answer

I read this post a few months ago that discussed the disadvantages to working 9-5 in an office everyday. It hit me so hard that I realized I had been holding my breath, as if that would make it untrue. How could an article be so inspirational and yet so disheartening simultaneously?

Immediately I realized all the little things I’ve done or bought over the past year as a result of what I considered “hard work.” Whether it was a large project or a long day at work, I tended to reward myself with food or other things in order to relax or feel better. But how does eating and buying worthless items really help?

Society has gotten used to placing so much emphasis on things that we let them control our lives. Some people buy things, some envy others for what they have, and some try to steal those things away from others. Jerry Seinfeld talked about how we should be getting rid of all the things we have in a very comedic fashion. It’s an endless cycle and does not add any value to your life whatsoever.

I’m convinced that money is so unimportant and it is SO easy to get caught up in it because that’s what we have learned to do. It’s a horrible habit that we need to break. I see coworkers constantly coming in with expensive Starbucks drinks and going out to buy lunch everyday. Then there’s me. I go out and buy worthless things to decorate my desk with, thinking it would make me feel better and brighten things up. While it does look nice, this doesn’t add any value to my life.

Life has gotten all mixed up in money and I think it’s time to change things…