i love.

i love to write. journal. read.

but i’m scared. and doubtful.

i don’t like capital letters. and i love lots of punctuation.

my mind gets in the way of my flow when i feel writing counts.

in my journal, there are no “rules” so anything goes. there’s no stopping the flow there.

but here…i have to say something that matters. something that doesn’t waste your time.

who says i have to? me?

yep. me.

keeping it real is something i love about some humans on the internet.

their posts and blogs and videos light me up.

why censor myself?

creativity is my jam. so is writing.

i even started what i thought would be a book. ha! someday i’ll come back to that.

that voice in my head tells me no one cares about what i have to say. that kinda makes me laugh. just kidding, i’m smiling and laughing out loud at how ridiculous it sounds.

so on this spiritual path of mine, i’m going to stop giving a fuck. i’m gonna start posting all the shit that flows from my head on here.

i started this blog for a reason and haven’t been able to part with it for years. i felt there was always something here. a way to channel creativity.

no one knows this blog exists (of all the humans i personally know in this world).

for now, i’m gonna keep it that way. one day i’ll share it with them. but this is as vulnerable as i can get for one day.

so i love you all to whoever is reading this. everyone needs more love in their life. so stay beautiful and true to yourself.



p.s. my favorite song right now: Vibes by Griffin Stoller


Orange is The New…Orange?

selective focus photo of orange cosmos flower in bloom


Do you believe something or someone can be replaced?

If a vase gets broken. Can it be replaced? What if there’s another vase that’s the exact same? Is it really the same vase? Or is it simply another version of something that is actually unique in its own way?

Call me crazy but I don’t there’s a replacement for anything in this world. All things living and non-living are unique in their own way. That’s what makes them so precious and impermanent.

The fact that something can be broken or someone can no longer exist. That’s what helps us savor the moments we do have with those people or precious creations.

Take nothing for granted. From your time here to the breaths you take in this moment.

Life is full of beauty and power if you open your eyes to what’s in front of you. So much is impermanent because life is about change.

Nature is a wonderful example of this. Everything ebbs and flows in perfect harmony. We perceive it as destructive but there’s a reason behind some things dying and others coming to life.

Whoever said nothing lasts forever was right.

I’m not saying this from a high pedestal. Rather this comes from my soul. The part of me that knows and understands the fragility of life. The part of me that is overshadowed by my ego and mind most of the time. She comes forth here and there to remind me of what’s real and truthful.

I wanted to share this because it’s something I’m working on right now. Savoring all moments of my life. Taking a step back to absorb everything in.

Big picture has always been a struggle for me. To grasp where I am literally in this moment is quite difficult for my mind.

But that’s where I get lost once again. It’s not about my mind. My heart and soul don’t have difficulty absorbing my reality. They are fluent in that language.

Back to the point. Don’t lose sight of what’s important to you.

Life is fleeting yet full of so much magical promise. Hold onto that love and strength. And contemplate how you feel about replacements.

Can anything or anyone be replaced? What does the word unique mean to you? Does anything come to mind when you think of that word? Have you smiled today?

Either way, orange isn’t the new orange.

Or is it?


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Life’s Rollercoasters

Rollercoasters are fun, right?

People pay to go on them. They stand in line for sometimes hours to ride them. They buy extra passes to skip the lines (because who likes to wait?).

They are meant to be fun.

What about the rollercoasters involved in daily life? The highs and lows. No one tells you about those. No one wants to wait in line or pay money for that.

However, without the lows we don’t truly know what the highs are like.

What I’ve come to know is that I can only take things one day at a time. Life changes too frequently for me to keep up sometimes. It’s easy to laugh a lot of the heavy things off, but when I no longer can I’m trying to practice patience.

Patience is a virtue, some say. And they are right. It’s a freaking virtue I never learned as a kid because I have zero patience with myself. I’m working on it…

So go easy on yourself today. If you didn’t get shit done that you meant to, laugh it off. Life got in the way of your so-called plans. It’s better to relax and enjoy the minutes of your day rather than stay up all night in bed because you hardly did anything that day.

xx K

Getting Clear

I’m getting clearer on what I want to do next. It feels like the right move, but I can feel the fear. How will I make money? Is this feasible? Where will I go? What will I do? Will I be alone? What is the point?

Listening to a youtube video the other day, Evan Rock discussed one’s purpose in life and how simple it can be. My purpose can be as plain as playing the piano every day. It doesn’t have to be some big, life altering thing. It can be focused on the things that bring you joy.

So what brings me joy? What has always brought me joy?


Something about going. Movement. Objects in motion. I love movement. Hence why I find myself writing this in Hawaii.

Stagnation and routine don’t settle well with me. I’m under the illusion of comfort when they appear in my life, but I’m starting to believe that’s my ego. My soul is on fire when I’m moving. That’s where my passion lies. Only thing is I’m feeling forced to monetize this passion of mine and fear keeps me grounded. When I’m actually happiest on the move.

When someone asks me what I want to do with my life, if I were to give them the truth, “travel” they wouldn’t understand or believe in me. I think this is why I couldn’t face the truth myself for so long.

I don’t want to be a travel blogger. I don’t want to work with companies and post ads for money. I don’t want to film my experiences and make Youtube videos. But I felt all those things were necessary if I were to travel for the unforeseeable future.

This could go one of two ways:

  1. I follow my passion and trust that things will work out the way they are meant to (and they do).
  2. I honor my passion like Elizabeth Gilbert says and don’t put the pressure of providing for me on it.

I’ve ignored my intuition SO many times. Don’t be like me. Listen to your gut. Don’t let your mind shut it out so easily.

I think there are so many people and experiences out there that I’m meant to encounter. This is the path for me, I just need to be brave enough to take that first step.

Feel the fear and do it anyway.


A couple years ago when I started this blog, I thought I’d be writing so much more. I mean…I love to journal, so why would this be any different?

Oh wait. You mean this gets posted on the internet for someone else to stumble across?

Then I got f r o z e n

How could I write on a blog when all I wrote about in my journal was my daily life? I didn’t want that immortalized on the inter web.

But a close friend reminded me of my blog and I’ve been having some crazy thoughts lately that I could potentially share on here.

I’m still chasing this life after all…

Right now, I’m trying to take some control back over my life. Stop letting things like…

  • procrastination
  • fear
  • insecurity

…take the wheel.

I’ve become somewhat of an expert at that (not to brag or anything…)

It’s quite empowering to realize this is MY life and I get to live it the way that I desire.

So I’ll leave you for now with a thought:

if you don’t go after what you want, you will never have it.

It sounds harsh, but if you mull it over, you’ll see that it’s simply the truth.

xx K

Why Start A Blog?

It feels a little conceited to think that people will care about what I have to say. And yet, it also is very negative to think that no one will care about what I have to say. Double edged sword. Yippee.

So why start a blog anyway?

Well, I love to journal. I love the clarity that comes from putting my thoughts down on paper. It has helped me think through many of the small problems I’ve come across. It also helps me to stop overthinking – something I love to do in my free time.

Whenever I stress about anything, it helps to write down everything that comes to my mind. No filter. No judgment. Just words. It’s really helpful!

The issue with blogging is that I want to filter my thoughts because of judgment or how they may come across to you. I’m a human who experiences anger, sadness, frustration, etc. and those emotions can be extreme to read – especially when you don’t really know who I am.

So why start a blog?

…because I can. Why not try out something new?

My default is always stick to comfort over new experiences – but part of me doesn’t agree with my typical response. So this was one step I took last year (2015) to try and write in a blog format.

I thought…”so many people do this regularly and make a living off it, why can’t I?”

I also thought this was what I wanted to do for a living a few months ago…but now I’m not so sure. Time changes everything, including your thoughts. Mine change daily. So while I don’t know what I want to do, I’m going to keep at this blog – even though I post once every few months (sorry!).

Thanks for reading my random thoughts if you found yourself here. Maybe you found my blog for a reason? Hope you find some answers for yourself here.





It’s okay to feel vulnerable. It’s okay to be scared of something. But to let that control you is not the kind of life you want to live. Fear is the most dominant emotion in my life. It drowns me in anger, jealousy, judgment, and stagnation. All of those emotions are so heavy you forget to breathe. That makes it really hard to manifest the positivity you so desperately desire.

I believe being vulnerable will help you begin to shed the weight of your negativity. It will help you realize that you are a gift to the world.

It has taken me years to begin to understand that making mistakes is normal. When it came to school, I did not want to fail for so many of the wrong reasons. But my path has led me to where I am today and that I am very grateful for.

So how does one be vulnerable?

My interpretation of it is to live just outside your comfort zone. When you do that, you tend to live a more honest life and I see honesty as the core to being vulnerable. For example, you look into taking yoga classes. After reading all the benefits of yoga and picking out the perfect studio, you are pumped to try it out. But as soon as you get to the studio and see all the other people stretching and chatting in their fancy yoga clothes, you panic.

Why am I doing this? Let’s just go home and try another day…

That uncomfortable feeling you get through being out of your comfort zone is vulnerability.

This year, I’m going to seek out feeling vulnerable once a month (at least). I want to work toward figuring out my true self and what better way than to actually challenge myself?!

It’s not going to be easy…especially after the calm year I just had in 2015. I’m going to push myself in 2016. Let’s just hope I’m not all talk…


What’s one thing you would like to try but have been putting it off?