It feels a little conceited to think that people will care about what I have to say. And yet, it also is very negative to think that no one will care about what I have to say. Double edged sword. Yippee.
So why start a blog anyway?
Well, I love to journal. I love the clarity that comes from putting my thoughts down on paper. It has helped me think through many of the small problems I’ve come across. It also helps me to stop overthinking – something I love to do in my free time.
Whenever I stress about anything, it helps to write down everything that comes to my mind. No filter. No judgment. Just words. It’s really helpful!
The issue with blogging is that I want to filter my thoughts because of judgment or how they may come across to you. I’m a human who experiences anger, sadness, frustration, etc. and those emotions can be extreme to read – especially when you don’t really know who I am.
So why start a blog?
…because I can. Why not try out something new?
My default is always stick to comfort over new experiences – but part of me doesn’t agree with my typical response. So this was one step I took last year (2015) to try and write in a blog format.
I thought…”so many people do this regularly and make a living off it, why can’t I?”
I also thought this was what I wanted to do for a living a few months ago…but now I’m not so sure. Time changes everything, including your thoughts. Mine change daily. So while I don’t know what I want to do, I’m going to keep at this blog – even though I post once every few months (sorry!).
Thanks for reading my random thoughts if you found yourself here. Maybe you found my blog for a reason? Hope you find some answers for yourself here.
It’s okay to feel vulnerable. It’s okay to be scared of something. But to let that control you is not the kind of life you want to live. Fear is the most dominant emotion in my life. It drowns me in anger, jealousy, judgment, and stagnation. All of those emotions are so heavy you forget to breathe. That makes it really hard to manifest the positivity you so desperately desire.
I believe being vulnerable will help you begin to shed the weight of your negativity. It will help you realize that you are a gift to the world.
It has taken me years to begin to understand that making mistakes is normal. When it came to school, I did not want to fail for so many of the wrong reasons. But my path has led me to where I am today and that I am very grateful for.
So how does one be vulnerable?
My interpretation of it is to live just outside your comfort zone. When you do that, you tend to live a more honest life and I see honesty as the core to being vulnerable. For example, you look into taking yoga classes. After reading all the benefits of yoga and picking out the perfect studio, you are pumped to try it out. But as soon as you get to the studio and see all the other people stretching and chatting in their fancy yoga clothes, you panic.
Why am I doing this? Let’s just go home and try another day…
That uncomfortable feeling you get through being out of your comfort zone is vulnerability.
This year, I’m going to seek out feeling vulnerable once a month (at least). I want to work toward figuring out my true self and what better way than to actually challenge myself?!
It’s not going to be easy…especially after the calm year I just had in 2015. I’m going to push myself in 2016. Let’s just hope I’m not all talk…
What’s one thing you would like to try but have been putting it off?
Have you ever had a dream that you’re embarrassed to share out loud?
And I didn’t realize it until yesterday.
But I am very glad I did because I believe it has been holding me back from reaching my full potential. The fact that I couldn’t admit to others what it is that I really want to pursue meant that I was still unsure of myself & my goals (which I still am to some degree – it’s a process).
Well what has changed?
Now, I really want it to come true, so I’m going to spill the beans and leave myself feeling vulnerable in order to help get myself closer to my dream…I want to travel the world for a living.
There. I said it. (More or less). It feels really good to get that off my chest! I’m tired of feeling ashamed or worried about having this dream. If other people out there can do it, so can I! I’ve been holding onto it for entirely too long, thinking it’s a wasted dream and will never happen. But I’m done with that negativity. I want to get this show on the road! (pun intended).
It’s finally time that I start taking steps in that direction. Now that I know where I’m headed, I feel more at peace with myself than I had anticipated. I suppose that’s bound to happen when you act in accordance with your true self and your own beliefs. (Yay!)
Don’t get me wrong, there are still a million worries/concerns running through my mind. But when I consider the alternatives to traveling the world, none of them can compare. I think that’s how I figured out this was the real deal. Eek!
I hope this helps you think about your dreams a little and don’t be afraid to say them aloud. It may help give you the little push you need to take that first step.
For a while I had absolutely no clue what I was doing with my life. And I still don’t to some extent.
I am, however, getting more clarity about life.
Now what do I mean by clarity about life?
It’s that light bulb moment where you realize you were going about it all wrong. It’s when you see your life from an aerial view and grasp a new perspective on things.
So recently I’ve gained some clarity and insight on myself that I would like to share…
Over the last 3 months, I’ve come to terms with the fact that I’m not remotely interested in an ordinary job. I believe that when you’re stuck making a decision for a long period of time (i.e. 4+ months) and nothing feels quite right, you should trust your instincts. Truthfully, I don’t believe I was put on this planet to work in an office or retail or sales and so on. So I’m going to follow my heart wherever it takes me.
The first thing that comes to my mind is travel.
I’ve always had a strong love of and desire to travel. But I struggle with the concept of solo travel because I love being around people I know. This is something I want to overcome (with time and practice). So I’m looking into doing my first solo trip somewhere mellow and easy to acclimate myself. Maybe this will help me gain more clarity surrounding my life?!
Let me know if you have any suggestions of places to look into visiting!
I started this blog because I wanted to become a travel blogger. But I have now realized that putting such pressure on myself has made this blog difficult to maintain. Since none of my posts have really been about travel, I tend to discard a lot of drafts about many of my random thoughts.
So now I am giving myself the freedom to go with the flow. How great does that sound?
Today I thought I should mention the big change that’s happened recently – I quit my job a few months ago and moved across the country (eek!) to a no-job situation. It’s still a little unbelievable that I did something this crazy. All my life, I’ve dreamt about doing something exciting and irrational but haven’t followed through with anything. This would be my first time.
I did it because I wasn’t satisfied with the quality of my life at the time. It felt like there was something else out there for me and that was what I needed to do if I wanted to find it. While every day is full of worry about many things, I’m working on developing a new perspective and more positive demeanor. I feel that will make a huge difference at this point in my life.
Life has so much to offer and deep down under all the fear and anxiety, I want to experience it all. Okay. Maybe not everything. But you get the idea.
I just recently returned from my first true vacation in quite some time and it was the most energizing and joyful experience ever. Now that I’m back home, it has gotten me thinking about my usual habits.
Whenever I go on a trip somewhere my typical habits are uprooted for a new daily schedule and it’s a refreshing break from the norm. But this was the most impactful break I’ve had because it helped me reflect on all my not-so-great habits.
One in particular is my relationship with television shows. While I don’t watch television all day every day, my tendencies surrounding it are a little unhealthy. When I find a show that I really like, I will not be able to stop watching it until I’m fully caught up. I have shamelessly binge watched SO many shows (thanks to Netflix and Hulu Plus).
Now what makes this habit not-so-great is that I not only waste so much time sitting down and staring at a screen, I also tend to eat a lot of snacks while I do it. Overtime, this has become a habit I have trouble breaking.
When I’m doing something other than obsessively watching a show, I don’t find myself constantly looking for snacks to munch on. This was brought to my attention while I was away and didn’t think about the shows I like.
I believe with easy access and a plethora of options, a television-watching habit is really easy to pick up (that could also be why it took me so long to notice it). So I’ve decided to put my Hulu and Netflix subscriptions on pause for a while to see how things pan out.
If anyone has gone through something similar and has any tips, I’d love to hear them!
…wish me luck 🙂
I just finished reading the book How To Be Parisian Wherever You Are: Love, Style, and Bad Habits by Anne Berest, Audrey Diwan, Caroline de Maigret, and Sophie Mas
…and I think it’s safe to say this book will be staying on my bookshelf forever!
It was so uniquely written that I felt like I was reading someone’s journal. The tips and quirks of a Parisian woman were enlightening and delightful to learn about. One of my favorites was the clip about a Parisian being late to work!
I think it is the perfect guide to being Parisian because it covers so many topics and because it advocates the concept of loving yourself & your natural beauty.
While there are aspects of their lifestyle I would like to adopt, such as their fashion sense, it also left me happier about my own quirks and habits that I don’t want to change. Overall, gaining insight into the lifestyle of a Parisian was a pleasure! It reminded me how much there is to learn about the world and the people in it.
I would definitely recommend this book to anyone who wants to inject their life with a little more Parisian flair!
Lately, I’ve been looking into the vegan lifestyle to see what it’s all about, why some people do it, what the benefits and drawbacks are, and what the food pyramid consists of. After what I have seen thus far, which is mostly personal accounts from bloggers and vloggers on the internet, I am considering trying this out next week.
Why next week, you ask? Well I’ll be moving to Seattle next week and once I’m there, I will officially be in control of the food that I eat every day. Not that I’m not in control of what I eat now, but while I’m at home, it’s difficult for me to drastically change my lifestyle & such a fundamental thing about myself. So it’s not a big deal for me to wait another week. It also helps that I’m sick and going through some other health problems at the moment. That is another reason to wait to change something like that.
I’m extremely excited and yet strongly apprehensive about doing this…I’m worried I will get too lazy and not eat the right foods – particularly when around other people or when I’m out and about. Also, I’m not 100% convinced this lifestyle is for me. But I am definitely going to try because I am curious and would like to see for myself the benefits/drawbacks of being vegan. Hopefully, there will be some positive changes going on! I will be sure to document as much as I can.
The past week has been spent searching for some good recipe ideas that I can work on. I am definitely planning on consuming a TON of fruit and veggies as my main source of food. But I also want to mix things up a little so it’s not the exact same foods everyday. I ALSO understand this will be an investment, for sure. Particularly because I plan on going to farmer’s markets and such to find these delicious fruits and veggies. I want my food to be organic and delicious!
Anyway, just thought I’d share my tentative plan. Since I will be near a readily available gym when I move to Seattle, I will also be exercising much more frequently. That doesn’t mean intense training sessions, but ideally I’ll be “moving” hopefully 30-60 minutes a day. This plan gets me excited for the big changes that are ahead in my life!
…and they are right!
Almost every self-help book or website you stumble across will tell you that you need to have confidence in yourself to help you make things happen.
I completely agree. If you don’t believe that you can lose those last 5 pounds or that you can win the promotion at work, who else is supposed to? By having that confidence, you’re letting the Universe know that you’re ready for whatever it throws at you and that you’ll succeed.
I say this because I’ve been watching previous Hells Kitchen episodes over the last week. Each competitor talked about the confidence they have in themselves, which can come across as cocky on occasion, but is still important to helping them succeed! Without believing in themselves, they wouldn’t make it any further in the competition.
It has been truly inspiring because I have been going through a few confidence lapses over the last few months. Things are changing in my life and I’m trying my best to stay positive throughout all of it because I know that will help me come out on top.
I just want my message today to be: believe in yourself! You are worth it and you have so much potential!
If you have watched this show, you absolutely know what I’m talking about. After binge-watching Seasons 1-6 twice I could not believe I had gone so long without these characters in my life!
Whenever I am in a sour mood or want to take my mind off something (and I have 20 minutes), I turn to Parks and Rec. This show has humor, it comically reveals the truth about human behaviors, and its characters welcome you in with open arms.
I may be taking this show too seriously, but all I know is how much it helped me get through the last 4 months. It’s not the healthiest option as a form of distraction, but sometimes you can’t be picky. Overall, I just seriously recommend you watch it! Some may say to start at season 2 because season 1 isn’t that great (I have mixed feelings about this). But if you’re going to watch it, why not start with season 1??
Here is when you should watch the show:
When you’re in a bad mood because Andy’s ridiculous comments or Ron Swanson’s extreme beliefs will be so absurd that you can’t help but laugh & forget why you were ever upset.
When you have 20 free minutes because why not? If you want to exercise, do some squats, push ups, and lunges while you watch. It’s a great mood booster!
When the world seems too pessimistic because it helps put things into perspective. It honestly helped me to watch Leslie Knope kicking butt at her job and loving it. While it didn’t help solve my problems, it gave me a new angle to view a job situation.
When you want to crack up because it’s impossible not to laugh when Andy puts his mouth over an entire water fountain spout or goes to multiple doctors in a day & gets his “ankles microwaved”.
Also, a little tip – head to Youtube and search for “Parks and Rec bloopers” for some hilarious clips from each season! Now go watch and laugh your butt off!!